I love looking back on the old year and seeing all the many experiences and adventures that have come about during that year. It's motivating to me to see where I was then compared to where I am now. A lot can happen in a year and 2016 pushed me in more ways then I ever imagined.
As 2016 came to a close, I felt so many emotions. I was so excited to celebrate the new year and as we counted down, tears filled my eyes with all of the struggles and heartache of that year. But then I remembered the light and joy that came because those struggles and I was filled with hope for a brighter future.
In 2016, I made a goal to focus on taking care of myself emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. I wanted to understand MY body. I wanted to learn what I needed to do to take care of this special gift that my Father in Heaven has given to me and create a better life for myself.
It seemed like a lot and looking back I thought that I wasn't even really accomplishing any part of that goal. I realized that I actually stuck with this goal, much more than I thought. It just wasn't in the way that I had envisioned in my mind. The coolest part was that my Heavenly Father was there guiding me every step of the way.
I worked on myself emotionally and mentally to come to understand what it means to forgive. I learned to love and speak more kindly to myself. To let go of grudges or hurt feelings that I had been hanging on to. I learned self control. I learned how to be more loving and patient towards my husband, kids and loved ones. (Side note: these things are still a work progress)
Spiritually, I learned to make scripture study an important part of my day. I've learned the importance of saying meaningful prayers and taking time to truly communicate with my Father in Heaven. I made it a priority to attend the temple weekly and do family history names and what an incredible blessing that has been in my life.
As most people do, I worked really hard this year on my physical fitness and nutrition. This is the one that I would say I felt the most discouraged about and felt I had lacked in progress even though I felt I was working so so hard. I would've liked to have dropped some pounds, but that didn't seem to be the plan for my body this year.
I realize now, that those pounds were of something a little deeper. Not just my nutrition or my physical fitness, though those are very important things, working on myself emotionally has made all the difference. I didn't realize how much my emotional health truly affected my physical health. I have made so many strides that are unseen by everyone else around me and I am can truly say I am so proud of myself. I am proud of the accomplishments and the things that I have learned about my body this year! I am proud that I haven't given up.
Now that I have been working on my emotional well being I am finding that my body is responding in a more healthy manner and is possibly ready to let go of some of the pounds that has been weighing me down. One thing I decided to say to myself as I go through this process is that "I'm not trying to lose the weight, because I don't want to find it. Instead, I am coming to release it and let it go." I am so amazed by the body and mind and how perfectly well they respond to each other.
I am so grateful for the things that I learned in 2016. It was a hard year, no doubt, but I feel so blessed that the Lord was there for me every step of the way. I look at my life and I can see his hand in everything. I can see that he wants me to accomplish my goals and he his helping me reach them as I dream and as I work to become the person that he knows I can be.
With my goals clearly set out before me, I am excited for what's ahead in 2017 and for all the many experiences and adventures that await me.
Goodbye 2016 and 2017...Here I Come! :)